The fear of being alive or the fear of living?
Do you know the saying….
"Do unto others as we would have them do unto us."
What about the same one, with a twist?
"Do unto YOURSELF as you would have done unto others.".
For some, one truth might resonate more than the other. It seems as society, spiritual philosopy and other guidelines stems from to those who lived life from a superior ego.
Superior or inferior ego?
There are little talks about the inferior ego, maybe, cus many ( apologise of being unfare or stepping on someones toes ) spiritual teachers & leaders come from a more superior ego? It is more realistic that those charactheres would, reach out, preach and take lead...
Many guideline suggests " treat others as you want to be treated yourself"... and this of course awesome.
What if, some have a tendency to be more loving, kind and generous and "do unto YOURSELF as you would have done unto others" would resonate more?
Some do not actually live from a place self serving, there are genuinly kind pure hearted souls out there whom even do not live from a place of pleasing/over serving/ martyr.
Its rare thou.
And hard for the opposite to vibrate with, there is no reference point.
And most likely many won´t last to long as it sadly seems to be more normal ( with a twist ) with greed, power games and lies. Hence the guidline "do unto others as we would have them do unto us" might be more of a practise.
Is this to a refelction on how twisted things can be?
That it is legal to smoke cigarettes, produce pharmaceuticals, have women wear burqa and big brother to watch every step when many herbs are illegal, public breast feeding/nudity banned ( slightly exagerating ) and naiveity/innocence/open heart and genuine sweetness is seen as something weak and often abused?
The guideline, "do unto others as we would have them do unto us" is of course utterly important and just imagine how the world would look like if majority did their best to vibrate with this.
The cause I wrote turned from start to end, and I´ll come back to the struggle of the inferior ego. Until then "do unto YOURSELF as you would have done unto others"
That might work for both ends to wake up/realize value in one way or another.
Embracing my Humanity ❤
Arlanda Airport, heading to Tallin to teach an ISTA L1.
What I love with traveling is that I am in some kind of a free zone. I can write, watch ppl and be in my creative flow and own head - only. No-one but strangers around, no questions, no wants, no talking.
Yet, today, there is tremendous resistance inside. It starts to become a huge sacrifice to live like this, I don't want to hide with the thoughts, feelings, experience. I love what I do, I will always give it all when am in a workshop room. But everytime is a sacrifice of sleep, rhythm, food and last but not least - personal deep relationships & family.
When traveling so much, its impossible - for me - to root and build deep friendships, not talk about a lovers relationship and my beloved little nephews. Always on the go, always preparing for the next. Then its utterly important to have rejuvenation and lone time while being home, otherwise I won't last.
Take me right, am not complaining but being transparent and I can mention a large number of benefits to do what am doing, and how much I simply LOVE it - now its simply time to narrow down though and locally focus.
I realize, that for many years. Yes many. My human heart has been sacrificed for the sake of the "greater good", for spirit, for other humans, I have dedicated my life to support a healthy awakening on this planet - and my mission has gone before everything, simply cus the calling from inside has been so strong.
Since I been so open since childhood, and had early awakenings and samadhis, It feels as I have walked the way from heaven to earth, ascending/descending, instead of the path of many - earth to spirit. And now, its enough. I wanna nourish my human heart. I wanna be here and now and also create space to do what I want to do for the sake of personal and soulful joy. I wanna play that guitar, pick up dj’ing, take cooking class, martial art classes and singing lessons.
I simply want to be. Hold my human heart in hands, with no need to transcend anything, with no more need to do healing for the collective "in the name of sacrificing myself". I will always work for humanity, grow spiritually and do what I do - by simply being me.
Not that I haven't loved all the development and ALL what I've experienced, I lived many life time within this life . Its simply a new era and similar things will be done, just differently - with a touch of glitter, gold sparkles, high heels and laughter.
On a side note in embracing my humanity....
Believe me, on some levels, this is on of the toughest experiences I ever experienced. To let the seeker go. Who am I without the seeker? After aaaallll these years,
Here, I do meet fear.
Its profound, really profound.
To let go of the seeker, is to die to something I identified with for more than 20 years.
Fear is, if I let go. Will I then fall asleep? Be a zombie in society? Controlled and programmed? Loose the opportunity to free more? Being defeated cus this lifestyle is a challenging one in a modern society. Lets say in the word of saga “ evil wins, light is defeated “.
That is the deepest fear ever...
To fall asleep... ( hearing a little whisper in my ear, how could you possibly ever fall asleep? )
Yet am pondering, what happens if I let it go?
Truth is, I don'thave the energy to “ fight” it longer.
Yet, the thought of letting go, to be “normal”, just be here and now...in everyday life.
Makes in this second, my heart pound.
And its not a pounding of excitement 😉
Boarding to the next adventure....
INTEGRITY - ALIGNMENT - YES AND NO - TRUSTINTEGRITY - ALIGNMENT - YES AND NO - TRUST
What does it mean to live in integrity and, to what are we living in integrity? Is it our soul purpose or ego driven behaviour? What are the fine lines of acting out of ego or soul? How far are we willing to go to compromise our souls, and for what? Most improtant, how does it feel when being in alignment and not? Is there a difference of "getting the will/my way through and being in alignment with soul purpose?
Wild like wonder feminine
Mature feminine opens the space, for all to feel enriched by her presence, she´s not afraid to shine nor to be beautiful. While the false feminine feeds of the energetic/attention of others. Immature feminine can seem to be enchanting, adoring & real. Yet it's strategy. For a sensitive being this is easy to spot yet the difference can be minimal, and one expression is not true or false - or even set in stone for divine or false. Both can be adoring!
Immature feminine often acts out of competition, envy and need of attention and she hides her truth in the shadow pretending to be real. While divine:mature feminine doesn't give a shit and celebrates it all - including humility and honesty with her sisters. Yet non is right or wrong - the false feminine is simply a shadow developed as survival strategy... Though, it's up to each and one to chose to shine light upon and thank "her" for the gifts and move on. Most of us play this role, some more some less.
Note..feminine and masculine PRINCIPLES
A purge of abuse, is it the collective soul speaking? Can healing and transformation accelerate through the one voice of many? I find the new times fascinating...
Earth mother, beings of the planet. Feeling of the being being of the being. Feeling the being as the whole - outside looking in as receptive for outer, feeling allowing surrendering. Only then the true mysetery will arise, only then the full story of life can appear only then the conencting threads will be visible in light. - Sanna Sanita
What is left if not embrasing soul and nourishing culture?
The longing for truth, why are we one this journey? What are the different journeys and how willing are we to show up for that what is NOT?
“There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own Soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.”
-Carl Gustav Jung
The scary thing with ppl being disconnected from source is that they are capable of doing anything to fill their own egocentric gap, to use and missuse others for their own wealth and wellbeing. A person naturally connected, doesn't abuse. Many living from the disconnected place doesn't feel their own suffering of such actions either. And it doesn't matter to express or reflect. It won't sink in. Actions will always be used as a mean to strengthen the "survival mechanism" through increase power and being someone. And that part will never ever be fulfilled. Look at many rulers in the world. Cruelty rules in many corners. Grandiose structured dangerous men and women in power positions. And some other sociopaths, narcissists and psychopaths around the globe.
And of course, many of us play different power games... but that's another topic.
In the core, weathet we know it or not, we all simply want to expereince belonging and love and the rest is a cover up and survival strategies that taken an more or less extreme...
A thought, experience and direct calling of the heart.
Humanity nowadays is quite disconnected from its sensations, inner world, and the true nature of reality. This is mostly experienced as a deep unfulfilled longing which feeds greed, consumerism and separation. Many spiritual traditions talk about this as the core suffering of humanity. The gap between our soul and human experience can never be incommensurably satisfied from outer stimuli. The only cure for this, is to go inwards, to re-connect with the soul and senses and use this as a bridge to fulfillment.
One way to reconnect is through nature...
I wonder when we´ll understand the relationship between epic orgasms, nature and inner reality? Pleasure is to be found everywhere, in anything. Awe and grace is forever present, its a shift of perception. A true tantrika, find the beauty in all. Thats tantra, use everything for the sake of liberation. Open your eyes, see the beauty - inside out. Not dependend on anything or anyone. And of course, again, its not a mind thing, its a neurological change and deep shift.. and isnt always that easy ;)
Though, as a start...
Experiment, letting go of the idea " I need to do seomthing to fix something " or " I do this cus am not good enough " Instead, use the practice as a curious exploration of divine manifestation.
- How can i use this practice for my ultimate expression of divine manifestation?
And just feel that..
If using the practice from a sense of, not good enough... its more heavy and limitied.
if using the practice from, what else is possible? I want to experience it all as divine expression..
Than its limitless....
For now, just feel the differencein the body of thinking in that way...
P.s In love with life and its endless possiblities
Just been out for a walk pondering life. Had a little moment of aha ... the humble sweet feeling of universal grace kissing my depth... brings a tear into eye. A sweetness in heart. Chills on the arms... the knowing of not knowing the longing of home...
I don't get it, there is nothing to get.. at the same time it's so profound when it touches being and yet, the here and now, so ordinary flat - yet that too is the profound....The feeling is different.
And it's a matter of shift of perceptions.And I wanna live in that - yet I do - we all do - but not.. but yes.
It's the feeling, the humbleness, the calling, the longing... deep deep inside. Life... a sweet kiss one moment and then the winds of ignorance blows once more...
And back again....
It just is, and some moments more sweet, yes as sweeeeeet, than others.
Thoug, there is no moment.
It's just happening...
The Void, the black hole. The Pitch black, formless. Nothing. And out of nothing where all life happenes. And happening. It's only happening, with no beginning and no end. A steady ever present manifesto of the formless form in multiple forms...
The void, always present, can be a scary place, seem to be lifeless, dark and silent. Scary, til we learn the great potential what actually is, and the magic that is possible to create when knowing about. The knowing within ourselves, as ourselves. As creators. The microcosmos in the macro cosmos and vice versa. The weakest weakness in the greatest power. And vice versa. The deepest longing and greatest fear... life and death. Really, no separation. Two sides of the same coin. Yet the coin only really has one side...
We have an enormous capacity... to create. Most just don't know it - yet.
This human ride.... wow.
I scratch my head, wondering what the heck am doing. Questioning the chosen path and how I make my living... And believe me, my parents and some friends does as well. I hear all kinds of roomers, which I mostly laugh from..
I am also watching the deep conditioning of shame and guilt, the "ugliness" of sexuality... they too, has been deep in my bones, thou am consciously choosing to break free from chains I still catch some that lurks in the dark...
And in the mist of forgetting, questioning, wondering...
I receive such wonderful testimonials from clients.
Two women how has regained their full sense in the yoni, and one adult man who has struggled with erectile dysfunction and after 4 sessions, experienced erection for the first time with a women...
Now, I do not mean to brag with this, I share and most of all, I remind myself that profound life changes are happening, seriously - it is big, people re-claiming their power and life from all kinds of traumas. New life..and that is absolutely wonderful to be a channel for such support...
May I be at service.